So, I need to empty out my head. Put things down somewhere so that I can get to work on funding. My brain is full of ideas and thoughts and things are roiling around.
I went to talk to the head of IS. I feel like such a fraud. I needed to be told that it was ok to look into this. I know it is ok, but I needed someone to tell me that I'm not some white girl looking for her Indian princess grandmother.
I don't think I am. He said he would have pegged me as Métis. Mixed. I don't know. Ifeel like everything I have been listening to and reading seems to be coming together into some kind of greater understanding.
J said it would be difficult.
I said that I was not afraid of difficult things, I just needed to know that it was not a wrong path.
I'm terrified and freaked out by this. In the same way that I have been freaked out by most of the revelations of the past year. Thing is, they're not wrong. I take them, sit with them, dream on them, and they've turned out to be right. I don't have to want them, but they're true.
I think this one is too.
IT feels right. It makes sense.
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