I was given a Goddess Tarot by a member of my Leather family

The deck is perfect, as I am supposed to be in service to a Goddess, although I do not yet know who she is.

I am the Prince of Cups


Men represented by this card are complex and powerful beings. They are self-contained - even secretive - giving an impression of calmness and serenity. However under that veneer they can often be intense and volatile. They tend to hide their deepest passions, and to protect them fiercely.
They are often creative - artistically or musically inclined, and have deep involvement in these areas. Many of the more successful artists and musicians in our lives would come up as a Prince of Cups.
Emotionally they can sometimes be turbulent and moody, but can also often hide their emotions and refuse to share them with others. However, having a highly developed sensitivity to emotional ups and downs, they will identify yours even before you have. Talking to somebody like this about emotional matters is usually a rewarding experience, because they are highly perceptive and use their intuition readily.

The Prince of Cups rules form the 20th degree of Libra until the 20th Degree of Scorpio. He is the Air of Water. He is the stormy sea that can destroy material objects. He rides upon the waves on a Chariot of water which is pulled forth by a black swan. In his right hand is an upside down lotus flower which has a stormy sea of its own in itself, and in his left hand he holds a cup from which a serpent springs up. The Prince is gazing at the serpent in this cup to try understand what is inside of him.

Persons characterized by this card are extremely individualistic and secretive. They are only concerned with their own reality and almost completely turned inward, to investigate the serpent in themselves. They want to understand the creative or destructive energies in themselves and don’t want anyone to interfere with this process. They seem calm and serious on the surface but beneath their surface hides a great violence. When one truly corners or opposes them this violence usually will surface. They have intense passions under their surface which they want to, no, which they must follow in order not to become ill.

They are very artistic, even if they do not choose any artistic skill to express themselves. The formula of Scorpion is very secretive, which is why that totem is not shown in the card itself. This character has no conscience in the ordinary sense of the word, and is therefore usually distrusted by his neighbours. They feel they do not, and can never, understand him. Thus he inspires unreasonable fear. He is in fact perfectly ruthless. He cares intensely for power, wisdom, and his own aims.
He feels no responsibility to others, and although his abilities are so immense, he cannot be relied upon to work in harness. This is because he doesn’t care about any rules imposed on him and he will never really be faithful to any scheme but his own.