Foo

Grounding today was interesting. 
Twice this week by the Kam, once on the mountain, and today at home, where I prayed for the families of Cee, and Kyle, the two elders lost to friends, and my community this week. 
That was painful.
Then, because I have been feeling that the Goddess wants to tell me something I asked her to tell me.

I felt my energy travel down, through the crawlspace, plant tendrils into the earth, draw up, and gather power in my head, stretch to become a column into the atmosphere, and then, after praying and moving some pain around, I became the centre of a ball of fire and the visions came:

I see the shore of a body of water.  To the left is a point, and in front is a sand beach, the trees are bluish in the twilight, it is dawn or dusk, and I can see sunset or sunrise just to the right of me.
The trees are mixed varieties, and outlines against the sky.

Then everything is whited out with a closeup of white, and I see snow on branches, pine branches, and it is snow on a pine forest, but then it resolves into the same curve of shoreline, only in winter, and the water is a shiny, slate grey.  The right half of my vision is obscured with whitish spiky fur/hair which keeps moving in and out of my vision, and blocking part of the view.

It seemed to resolve a bit into hair, but it as blurry, and it seemed to be a person, with their arms on either side of me, but I couldn't see their face.

Right after that, I saw a garbage can clearly, with the garbage can lid open, and the one so kindly referred to as "garbage can eyes" because she's like Oscar, peering from between the can and the lid came out and cuddled with me for a bit.  It was a really strange experience.  She's tiny and scared, and the memory clearly has to do with her.

Then I went to close my shield, from centering, and it had this red gunge on in, so I tried to clear it off, send it out, but instead it wrapped around it, and turned into a black net.  Apparently I need to bring it in, and deal with it, not send it out.  So I regrounded myself, and I get to do it again another day.

fsk.

lessons:
1. if stuff spills out, collect it.
2. don't stress, the images will come

how to tell if the 'foo' is real:
- if it feels close to your heart, and true to reality? I think is what K said?
- if my skin feels tingly, like everything is just a bit electric
-if my joints hurt, especially my hips, and my knees and shoulders
- if everything seems extra clear, and things just fall into place for a conversation, or an idea

I still can't really believe this is happening. The cat sat next to me while I was meditating though, not on me, which was odd. Usually she's under or on me, even when I am trying to do pushups or something.